When you have your first spiritual experience, you
immediately run into the first problem, which is that you perceive a
collective world in your individual consciousness. But when you start to
see in a larger perspective as an individual, your thinking remains
individual all the time, while your consciousness slowly rises into the
collective zone. The reason your thinking remains individual
consciousness-based is because as an individual it is extremely
difficult to understand the collective consciousness. However, any
further questions that arise are immediately overshadowed by a sense of
speciality and a sense of the power you have to gain an advantage over
others in the game called Life.
Human
society is based on the fact that there are specialities and there are
experts. As your inner world comes alive, it's very hard to think that
this information is very important to be careful with and almost
everyone immediately turns to experts in the field. Usually because they
don't know anything about it and can only find out from experts in the
field. There are basically four main directions. Religion, psychology,
esotericism and yourself. The credibility of religions is given by the
traditions and the institutional system based on them, and the
counterpoint is provided by the fallible priests. Psychology is the
field of science that deals with this, it is still a young discipline
and mostly treats the sharpening of the inner world as a disease. It is
in the field of esotericism that the masters have emerged, setting up
groups and balancing on the borderline of sectarianism. The fourth area
would be the one that was originally the only area, but to do this, one
has to step outside the templates that are the cornerstones of this
civilisation.
What are these
templates? When one comes into contact with spirituality, even at the
level of interest, one immediately thinks of magic. However, it is worth
clarifying the difference between magic and esotericism, as people
confuse the two. Esotericism is when you look within yourself at
yourself and your goal is enlightenment. Magic is when you look within
yourself at the outside world and your goal is to enforce your
intentions on others. The two can't really be separated at the
collective level, where the individual is not understood, just as the
individual doesn't understand the collective. When you look at others at
the collective level, you are looking at yourself through the eyes of
the collective. But if you look at the same from a lower perspective, or
from outside, you see it as magic. Involving people from a lower
perspective always carries a certain risk, because their accusations are
rooted in ignorance, to which there is no higher perspective to
respond. An excellent example of this is, say, talking to your
environment about the sharpening of your inner world, which, say,
changes your values and the importance of things they will see as making
you crazy. Even if you tell them your experiences from your
perspective, even a psychologist will not believe you if you prove it to
them.
So it is a lonely way. But if it is a lonely path, what are people doing in esoteric groups, let alone church communities?
Man
is a social being and does not like to be alone. But you can only do it
alone. There is no other way than to do it as an individual. On this
individual journey you have to gather for yourself what you need on the
journey. Normally, everything will come to you, you just have to be
prepared to receive it and be maturated for it. But this takes time in a
hurried world. In the normal case, which is no longer a normal case in
this world, you have two choices. One is to go to a deserted place and
not return until you have the necessary initiations, which you call down
for yourself. Which could be up to 15 years. The other is to shorten
that time and copy for yourself the initiations that others already
have. But if you're a beginner, you have no idea how to do this and if
you start experimenting with it, you'll easily find yourself in the
sights of those who are nowhere near beginners and part of a world full
of things you don't know about either. And that world is full of
temptations, enticement and sweet traps designed to get you into their
sphere of influence so that they can use your energies to empower them.
If you do so, you will stray from the individual path you started on, if
you refuse, you will make resentful enemies who will use the Force
against you.
From my own experience, I can tell
you that what you read in the eso books is all true in the right
interpretation. In fact, what successful entrepreneurs say is also true,
that you have to believe in yourself even when faced with difficulties,
keep going and success will not fail. But as a beginner, inexperienced
and unprepared, it is not easy. Because the very first thing you have to
do is to overcome fear. You will read a lot of what seem to be clichés
in these eso books, but they lose their cliché character as soon as they
are filled with content. This content, however, takes time, just as it
takes time for the necessary layers to be applied and settle, so that
the next layers can arrive and settle. If you do so, you will end up in
an apartment after years (which for me is 20 years at the moment), out
of the cycle of life, losing your connection, to which an enlightened
one will say that once you have attained it, you no longer need either
the connection or the illusions of the material world. Not a good
advertisement for a beginner who sees in all this how and where his/her
career is going.
I will tell you that the great
spiritual teachers of history who descend for the benefit of humanity
are all considered fools by those from whom they descend. In the same
way that you are fooled by your buddies, just as after the first rise in
visibility you are no longer interested in the cool things that were
going on before. So what's the solution? The big question is who wants
to come back and why? I heard a wise saying somewhere, good leaders are
not driven by a lust for power. For example, I would be very disturbed
if I were followed by veil-eyed crowds, it is not by chance that I took
up Satan, although as a non-religious person that is not a problem for
me anyway. But the veil-eyed masses are kept away regardless, if they
knew the whole picture in the right spirit they would find nothing wrong
with it. But at the vantage point where the masses are, Satan can be
sold as a hoofed, brimstone-blowing, horned evil and here you can
understand why anyone who would stoop to his level for humanity is
looked upon as a fool. Nor is this descent necessarily understood as
seeing him there, standing in the air, descending, but as his body being
here, only his consciousness returning to the outside world.
But
if you're a beginner, I think you're not so much interested in going
down as you are in going up, and you haven't the faintest idea how to
get started. I'll let you in on a big secret. People believe that there
is the physical world and there is the spiritual world. Those who know
the spiritual world better can break it down further. I argue that this
is an anomaly and that the curriculum is flawed. The problem of the
spiritual world, or anomaly, is caused by the fact that you have created
another spiritual world outside of the physical world and perceive the
two as one. So there is a spiritual world that only you alone can access
within yourself and there is one created by human belief in the
spiritual planes. And if you believe the two to be one, then what can
happen is that if you believe a spiritual being that exists outside of
you as a god, you can pretend to be someone else in your own world.
When
I perceived this problem, I approached it not as a problem, but as an
opportunity, after I had become aware of the problems of the higher
dimensional levels. My case is so unique that if I had to go back in
time, my performance could not be replicated. In my past life I had some
serious head injuries, after which I rearranged my consciousness so
that the result was better than it was. This hardware tuning was
followed by the first spiritual initiations, i.e. software tunings, and I
happened to be the first person on Earth to reach the deep trans realm
with my consciousness, surviving the rejected offended enemies. To feel
and experiencing the problems of our world (and not just our world),
only to spend years solving the problems of the higher dimensional
levels with my logic-based rationality that suddenly emerged there, and
the 3D timeline of my body sitting here. Then, at some point, I decided
to suspend my work there and return to sort out my body's 20 years of
multiplying problems.
I'm basically an
explorer, with a constructive and creative approach to the world. The
big problem of coming back was how to provide the right spiritual
background to support it. The solution was to make my own
holo operating system
that I would make so that others could use it and here again the
solution is, if you want to meditate alone, which solution is best for
you.
I mentioned above
that the problem with the world is that there are actually two
spiritual worlds that people think are one. But what makes it a problem
what you believe? The answer lies in the hologram. Science has
now reached the point
where it has realised that the physical world is nothing but a gigantic
hologram. What does this mean in spiritual and practical terms? This
question reflects the two hemispheres of the human brain, which is the
key to this whole issue.
In a spiritual sense, all questions are
about God, but the problem is that each dimension means a different
thing. One can generate a serious debate just by trying to define the
concept itself. And then there are the atheists, which is a double twist
to the story, because if you deny the existence of something, you are
actually affirming it. Back then I started out with no evidence for it,
but no evidence to the contrary. I think this is the real scientific
approach and it can only be undertaken by a person who on the one hand
is not baptised and on the other hand is seriously determined to get to
the bottom of it.
If you start meditating alone and keep yourself
outside the teachings of others, you will slowly realize that this
question of God does not make sense as you have seen it in the world.
The way you have seen this question in the world so far, it only makes
sense if this sense is related to the second spiritual world. To that
which man has created. But how can man create such a thing? By the fact
that the hologram has a property, which I can best explain as what you
believe you have. So the hologram is related to your belief. That means
that it's not just the mind that interacts with it, or not just the
rational hemisphere of your brain, but the intuitive hemisphere as well.
The best proof of this is hypnosis, where if you believe that the coin
in your hand is a glowing piece of metal, your hand will burn. A good
example of this is walking on parry in counterpoint in team building
training, where the opposite happens under the influence of belief. So
faith is one of the keys to your relationship with the hologram. The
other is knowledge. It is also the two that determine your place in the
world.
If you burn your hand in hypnosis because you believe it is
a glowing piece of metal, it is a direct confirmation of what some
religions and philosophies of worldviews say, that our world is nothing
but an illusion. If I were to translate that into the language of our
world today, I would say that our world is nothing but a holographic
video game that you live and play in. And this interpretation opens the
way for you to sort out within yourself the problem of the two spiritual
realities that are thought to be one. If you are looking for the first
spiritual reality, you will find it within yourself alone. When I
started to develop my own spiritual framework, I did not even touch this
issue, all I did was to ensure that the second spiritual world could
not interfere. But why and how was this second spiritual world created?
Imagine
a player who gets into this video game forgetting everything about the
world outside of it and knowing nothing about the game's features. This
is exactly the situation of a newborn baby. But a newborn baby is born
into a civilisation where the world is explained to it from an early
age, and this is accelerated when the child goes to school. He/she has
to learn a lot of things by the time he/she reaches adulthood. However,
90% of this knowledge is knowledge discovered by others, which he/she is
forced to accept as fact and has no choice but to do so, because he/she
has neither the time nor the capacity to rediscover everything that
others have done before him/her over the centuries. There is no problem
with this if it is done within the proven and controlled framework of
science, but religion is a different matter. But how did religions
evolve? By man of that time seeing, say, a flash of lightning, which
they attributed to higher invisible forces, and what they believed about
it, the hologram created for them. Because the hologram created it for
them, they sooner or later became aware of certain laws, which then gave
rise to complex religions. If you were to ask me if what the church
says is true, I would say that if you believe it, it is true for you.
When
you are born, you use the hemisphere of your brain that is wired to the
intuitive channel. As an adult, you would call such a person a
magician, and this is borne out by the atmosphere surrounding, say,
native peoples who are said to have magical powers. But as soon as this
child starts school, the other hemisphere slowly takes over. What
happens then is that the brain cells that are associated with this magic
power start to close and the cells that are needed to succeed in life
and strive to be accepted by society open up. Nothing else happens as
the hologram adapts to you and your intentions. If you're still reading
this, it suggests that on the one hand you've started to take an
interest again in the cells you locked yourself in as a child, and on
the other hand you don't accept what you hear about spirituality through
the institutions built up. But you don't know who is actually writing
it out, you can only rely on your intuition, paradoxically using your
intuitive brain. That is, you either believe it or you don't. That's how
religions and holograms work. That's how this game called life works.
If
you say that life is not a game, you are actually taking the game
seriously. And if you say that life is a game, people will think you're
not serious. This logical paradox will accompany you all the way,
because if you take ascension seriously, it will go hand in hand with
the diminishing importance of your rational brain, with the result that
you become a child in an adult body. What is your natural reaction to
this? You pretend to be an adult in the adult world, which means you
lie. You fool them in order to avoid being disadvantaged because you
start to deviate from the pattern that is considered normal by social
consensus. You can pretend not to lie to them and give a big fuck what
people think of you, but that only works in the comfort zone when you
are already successful and not dependent on anyone. I would say, as some
visionaries preach, that you can live a full life as a shop assistant,
but that will not change a world led by people who have gained the power
they need, mostly undeservedly.
There are basically three types
of people. The first gets his special abilities from himself, the second
gets them from others, and the third combines the two. If you acquire
it yourself, it is rarely done in comfort, but it can be done if you are
born into a wealthy family. By walking this path, you can look in the
mirror at any time without being forced to suppress with
unscrupulousness what you would otherwise see. You can say that you are
walking the true path, but in doing so you must survive in a fractious,
dishonest world. So that's where your energies go. And in the logo of
Christianity, there is a warning of what awaits those who would preach
this true way to others, which is not to be thought of! For religion,
when it comes into contact with the earthly power, becomes the
instrument of the second spiritual world, which does not tolerate the
first in its world. And we have come to the second type of man, who gets
his abilities from others, at a price. That price is yourself. You will
have success, you will have power over others in an institutional
system where death (and then, of course, hell) awaits you if you dare to
question the institutional system and its leaders. And we come to the
third type of person who does.
In my case, there was a big
misunderstanding. It never occurred to me to be part of a spiritual
community, I visited a few such groups as a beginner to gather data and
evidence to decide if the whole esoteric world was fake. In the
meantime, I went my own way and kept at it even when the master realized
that his words he hadn't said at the beginning didn't lead to the
acceptance he expected. But in hindsight, if events had not happened
that way, I would never have learned spiritual warfare at that level and
never have come close to the channels from which my consciousness was
panic-fired into the unknown. Which I have come to know and have given
the name of deeptrans. If I had a business card, I might as well write
three things on it, which by the way mean one thing: dream researcher,
death researcher, god researcher.
Upon my return, I began to feel
more strongly the importance of things that had previously only been in
the form of the civilizational stress of lack of income. There could be
two paths before me, but I started out, as usual, on a third that I was
treading. I could write damn good books, be famous in America, give
lectures. But practice shows that even the most brilliant lectures
are true, as the saying goes, that every miracle lasts three days. I
could be a holy man with the level of dimension I have behind me, but
the belief that the higher the dimension, the more intentions one can
assert in the here and now is wrong. Or not quite wrong, because what
you believe is what you have and that is the basis of this new path.
With career prospects that I may be a national security risk, but
believe me, everyone is better off if we prioritize diplomacy over
combat. Because part of the reason for the misunderstanding may be that I
understand the world much better than those who think they have it in
the palm of their hands. In the next part I will deal with the
restoration of the world, because there are players on the larger table
in this game who understand this to mean the abolition of the physical
plane.
